022811.
Had a strong craving for ramen so, ate ramen for lunch. Was hungry again an hour later so mom made a tasty snack of avocado and tomato slices on toast.
Kimchi japchae (mother's specialty) for dinner. My appetite was unusually big tonight and I ate a lot. Walked to Fushion Sushi (on PCH) with my mom to pick up my dad who was eating/drinking with a business client. Shared a cup of coffee with her on the way.
Insert grapefruit and orange in there somewhere. I eat fruit multiple times a day so it's hard to keep track of it all.
Monday, February 28, 2011
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Diet Log: Too Much Coffee
022711.
I've accepted the fact that Panera will be a constant in my life for as long as I'm living with my parents. Ate half a souffle and at least 3 cups of coffee. Black.
After church, driving to LA for kimchi ingredients! For lunch, seafood soondubu at BCP, BCD, whatever it's called. So. Much. Food. I can't eat that amount in one sitting anymore. It's only seven but I know I won't be eating dinner.
Made kimchi for the first time! Two types: thinly sliced radish kimchi and baechu kimchi. My mom guided me through the proportions and such but I did most of the work. Am one step closer to trophy wife-dom.
Might eat some mini cream puffs before the night is over.
I still like the soondubu at Chodang better.
I've accepted the fact that Panera will be a constant in my life for as long as I'm living with my parents. Ate half a souffle and at least 3 cups of coffee. Black.
After church, driving to LA for kimchi ingredients! For lunch, seafood soondubu at BCP, BCD, whatever it's called. So. Much. Food. I can't eat that amount in one sitting anymore. It's only seven but I know I won't be eating dinner.
Made kimchi for the first time! Two types: thinly sliced radish kimchi and baechu kimchi. My mom guided me through the proportions and such but I did most of the work. Am one step closer to trophy wife-dom.
Might eat some mini cream puffs before the night is over.
I still like the soondubu at Chodang better.
Saturday, February 26, 2011
LE GRAND RETOUR
it's not impractical or impossible or whatever you said to log everyday, but we are impractical and illogical beings...... so yeah. haha.
I don't know what's been going on with my diet/weight. Haven't been doing it i guess. i want to lose weight but i'm so preoccupied with other things right now i like don't have time to really make an effort to lose weight. i suppose it'd be easy to just not eat at all and then i would lose weight, but my penchant for wasting time induces me to consuming food, and even if that wasn't the case I would eventually get hungry or need to eat so as to not die. erhm. yeah. i suppose i could try, prioritize my diet. in other areas of my life, namely school, i've accepted my failures, so i don't feel as shit anymore about coming up short and failing cos i've accepted that i'm a failure. like it's not stressful when you don't care so much. but i must remember to not let that affect the work I actually produce. the work i actually produce should be done properly. i've just accepted the time i have and spend not doing my work, and will try to no longer bring myself down about it.
anyway.. i have to go downtown in the morning for a lecture event thing. and also need to get a few things for my personal living while i'm there.
I will try and lose weight. i basically can only allow myself to live a half-life while i'm not satisfied with my weight so i suppose i should care more to lose weight. ah... how it has so greatly shaped the person i am today. i came across that watch you gave me, the flower one from Korea. when I was ten, i had a pair of jean shorts with a butterfly patch on it. i remember wearing that with a white t-shirt that had very tiny flowers entrelaced with a vine. given the colors were earthy. but still. haha. i had no problem with that whatsoever. i guess I would've been more girly if I never got fat. so in a way, I'm glad I gained 8 lbs in four months and thought I was horrendously overweight at 108 lbs. at the start of high school. i may have turned out to be a worse person had I not.
I don't know what's been going on with my diet/weight. Haven't been doing it i guess. i want to lose weight but i'm so preoccupied with other things right now i like don't have time to really make an effort to lose weight. i suppose it'd be easy to just not eat at all and then i would lose weight, but my penchant for wasting time induces me to consuming food, and even if that wasn't the case I would eventually get hungry or need to eat so as to not die. erhm. yeah. i suppose i could try, prioritize my diet. in other areas of my life, namely school, i've accepted my failures, so i don't feel as shit anymore about coming up short and failing cos i've accepted that i'm a failure. like it's not stressful when you don't care so much. but i must remember to not let that affect the work I actually produce. the work i actually produce should be done properly. i've just accepted the time i have and spend not doing my work, and will try to no longer bring myself down about it.
anyway.. i have to go downtown in the morning for a lecture event thing. and also need to get a few things for my personal living while i'm there.
I will try and lose weight. i basically can only allow myself to live a half-life while i'm not satisfied with my weight so i suppose i should care more to lose weight. ah... how it has so greatly shaped the person i am today. i came across that watch you gave me, the flower one from Korea. when I was ten, i had a pair of jean shorts with a butterfly patch on it. i remember wearing that with a white t-shirt that had very tiny flowers entrelaced with a vine. given the colors were earthy. but still. haha. i had no problem with that whatsoever. i guess I would've been more girly if I never got fat. so in a way, I'm glad I gained 8 lbs in four months and thought I was horrendously overweight at 108 lbs. at the start of high school. i may have turned out to be a worse person had I not.
Friday, February 25, 2011
Diet Log: 022411
I realize it's impractical and kind of impossible to actually do this every day, so. Logs to be dated from this point.
Weight report: lost 2 kilos. That equals to 4.4 pounds. Shazam!
Thursday:
Breakfast of two fried eggs before going to jury duty.
Sandwich a la moi at around 10 am because I was bored and hungry while sitting in jury room. Stacked in order: mayo, tomato, spinach, one fried egg, 3 slices of turkey meat, avocado. Ridiculously delicious. I think the tomatoes are what made it.
Dismissed at around 11:30. Had a latte at Barnes and Nobles because I didn't feel like going home. Lattes make good snacks.
Picked up my brother at 3 and baked yesterday's leftover pasta in the toaster oven with mozzarella on top. Was too impatient to wait until it was properly "baked" but still v. yummy.
Mom's cooking for dinner, not too much though due to the brunch + linner I had earlier. Ice cream for dessert.
Sounds like I ate a lot today, but it was all in small~medium portions and spread out throughout the day, so not bad at all. Except for the ice cream at the end. Curse that creamy goodness.
Am not exercising. At all. Will never be ready for summer.
Weight report: lost 2 kilos. That equals to 4.4 pounds. Shazam!
Thursday:
Breakfast of two fried eggs before going to jury duty.
Sandwich a la moi at around 10 am because I was bored and hungry while sitting in jury room. Stacked in order: mayo, tomato, spinach, one fried egg, 3 slices of turkey meat, avocado. Ridiculously delicious. I think the tomatoes are what made it.
Dismissed at around 11:30. Had a latte at Barnes and Nobles because I didn't feel like going home. Lattes make good snacks.
Picked up my brother at 3 and baked yesterday's leftover pasta in the toaster oven with mozzarella on top. Was too impatient to wait until it was properly "baked" but still v. yummy.
Mom's cooking for dinner, not too much though due to the brunch + linner I had earlier. Ice cream for dessert.
Sounds like I ate a lot today, but it was all in small~medium portions and spread out throughout the day, so not bad at all. Except for the ice cream at the end. Curse that creamy goodness.
Am not exercising. At all. Will never be ready for summer.
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Diet Log: I Don't Even Know
Was occupied this weekend with I don't quite remember except for the fact that I went to Sequoia with family. Ate moderate amounts of food every day since my last diet log.
Yesterday, Monday:
Breakfast with my parents at their most favorite place in the world, Panera. Didn't feel like food so ate a parfait (could SO make a much better one at home) and stole some of mom's coffee.
Before lunch, some grapefruit that we bought from one of those little open air markets on the way to Sequoia. Really good grapefruit. Firm, not too juicy, just the right amount of sour to go with the subtle sweetness. Yum yum.
Not food related: parents changed living rooms. Again.
Made my family kimchi fried rice for lunch, which was amazing, as always. Am considering opening a kimchi fried rice chain.
So I've decided that I'm not going to spend more than 7 dollars on any meal when I'm out of the house. For dinner, a 3 dollar chicken taco from Poquito Mas, and a 3 dollar latte from Peet's for dessert. Success!
Munched on cereal before going to sleep.
Tuesday:
No breakfast.
Sliced up an avocado to eat with bread but it was waaaay too unripe for consumption. Fail. Ended up eating three small slices of sourdough bread with nothing on.
Made stew for dinner. Beef, tomato, onion, carrot, celery, string beans, mushroom, potato, cilantro, salt, pepper, cilantro, chicken stock. Forgot to add garlic and peppers so was a little bland but still tasty.
I love cooking!
Surprisingly enough, purple radish seems to have dropped out of my life.
Yesterday, Monday:
Breakfast with my parents at their most favorite place in the world, Panera. Didn't feel like food so ate a parfait (could SO make a much better one at home) and stole some of mom's coffee.
Before lunch, some grapefruit that we bought from one of those little open air markets on the way to Sequoia. Really good grapefruit. Firm, not too juicy, just the right amount of sour to go with the subtle sweetness. Yum yum.
Not food related: parents changed living rooms. Again.
Made my family kimchi fried rice for lunch, which was amazing, as always. Am considering opening a kimchi fried rice chain.
So I've decided that I'm not going to spend more than 7 dollars on any meal when I'm out of the house. For dinner, a 3 dollar chicken taco from Poquito Mas, and a 3 dollar latte from Peet's for dessert. Success!
Munched on cereal before going to sleep.
Tuesday:
No breakfast.
Sliced up an avocado to eat with bread but it was waaaay too unripe for consumption. Fail. Ended up eating three small slices of sourdough bread with nothing on.
Made stew for dinner. Beef, tomato, onion, carrot, celery, string beans, mushroom, potato, cilantro, salt, pepper, cilantro, chicken stock. Forgot to add garlic and peppers so was a little bland but still tasty.
I love cooking!
Surprisingly enough, purple radish seems to have dropped out of my life.
Saturday, February 19, 2011
You can say fuck you to the world
It never was and never will be a fair fight. It's you against you x 7B + non-human forces. And that is why one shouldn't take themselves too seriously, or others either. Or, if you'd like, that is why one shouldn't take people too seriously, oneself included.
Friday, February 18, 2011
2ème journée
roasted chicken breast
two slices of wheat bread with butter
glass of water
peanut butter & jelly sandwich
venti coffee with half&half and sugar
two slices of wheat bread with butter
glass of water
peanut butter & jelly sandwich
venti coffee with half&half and sugar
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Diet Log: Day 4
Thursday.
I actually kind of felt like I was on a diet today.
Didn't get out of bed for lunch because I didn't feel like eating. Mom called and said we were going out tonight, and by the time I got up it was already 2, so I just ate some cereal with raisins and half a glass of OJ. How American.
Dinner at Korean restaurant. It sucked. I want to go back to Korea and eat real Korean food.
Purple radish with a side of TV with my parents. This is becoming a daily thing.
And just a few minutes ago, a couple slices of white toast with a yogurutu because I was mysteriously hungry. I guess bad tasting food can do that to you. I'm still mysteriously hungry. May drink a glass of OJ. Still two hours left until Friday-- hope I can resist going to Ralph's and buying a pack of Nantucket cookies and eating it all in one sitting. Not likely to happen as I have no one to go with. Very tempted though. Okay OJ, here I come.
I actually kind of felt like I was on a diet today.
Didn't get out of bed for lunch because I didn't feel like eating. Mom called and said we were going out tonight, and by the time I got up it was already 2, so I just ate some cereal with raisins and half a glass of OJ. How American.
Dinner at Korean restaurant. It sucked. I want to go back to Korea and eat real Korean food.
Purple radish with a side of TV with my parents. This is becoming a daily thing.
And just a few minutes ago, a couple slices of white toast with a yogurutu because I was mysteriously hungry. I guess bad tasting food can do that to you. I'm still mysteriously hungry. May drink a glass of OJ. Still two hours left until Friday-- hope I can resist going to Ralph's and buying a pack of Nantucket cookies and eating it all in one sitting. Not likely to happen as I have no one to go with. Very tempted though. Okay OJ, here I come.
Diet Log: Day 3
Wednesday.
Seriously, excellent week to jump start my diet log.
Breakfast at the Starbucks in the mall. A rice crispy bar named Marshmallow Heavenly Something with a bottle of Izze soda (Clementine flavored). I kept staring at the words on the bottle that said "all natural" and "fruit" and "fat free" but it didn't make me feel any better.
After watching Tangled, lunch at Johnny Rockets. Hot dog with fries and a root beer float. I asked for no mustard but the waiter brought it out and it had mustard on and I wasn't gonna say anything but I guess I had this look on my face because suddenly he was like, "Oh, did you ask for no mustard?" and offered to take it back but I didn't feel like waiting for a new one so I just took the mustarded hot dog. And I think he forgot about my float also because I was half done with my hot dog and it still hadn't come out, so I had to ask for it. He also forgot to give us separate checks even though we asked beforehand. Once we finally got our separate checks, Ashley and I both paid with 20's, but when he gave us back our change we got eight dollars extra because for some reason on the receipt he put down that Ashley had given 28 dollars. Since we didn't know what to do we just left the eight dollars on the table without actually leaving any tip. The whole time we thought the waiter was really noob, but if he purposely manipulated the receipt so he could make an extra eight bucks, he is a genius and a thief.
Dinner was a bit redeeming: kimchi jjige à la moi. Again, at first, I couldn't finish the rice-- but as I sat at the dinner table alone while my mom was doing the dishes, I, without any thought, ate the rest of the rice with my fingers. You know, just picking up clumps of it and putting it in my mouth. Subconsciously. The bowl was empty before I knew it. And it was okay that that had just happened because I had spent the half hour before constantly washing my hands as I cooked.
More purple radish some time after dinner. This may become a daily thing.
Extra: potato, but not consumed. Mom sliced up a potato and gave me a potato facial. I don't know if it did anything. lol.
Seriously, excellent week to jump start my diet log.
Breakfast at the Starbucks in the mall. A rice crispy bar named Marshmallow Heavenly Something with a bottle of Izze soda (Clementine flavored). I kept staring at the words on the bottle that said "all natural" and "fruit" and "fat free" but it didn't make me feel any better.
After watching Tangled, lunch at Johnny Rockets. Hot dog with fries and a root beer float. I asked for no mustard but the waiter brought it out and it had mustard on and I wasn't gonna say anything but I guess I had this look on my face because suddenly he was like, "Oh, did you ask for no mustard?" and offered to take it back but I didn't feel like waiting for a new one so I just took the mustarded hot dog. And I think he forgot about my float also because I was half done with my hot dog and it still hadn't come out, so I had to ask for it. He also forgot to give us separate checks even though we asked beforehand. Once we finally got our separate checks, Ashley and I both paid with 20's, but when he gave us back our change we got eight dollars extra because for some reason on the receipt he put down that Ashley had given 28 dollars. Since we didn't know what to do we just left the eight dollars on the table without actually leaving any tip. The whole time we thought the waiter was really noob, but if he purposely manipulated the receipt so he could make an extra eight bucks, he is a genius and a thief.
Dinner was a bit redeeming: kimchi jjige à la moi. Again, at first, I couldn't finish the rice-- but as I sat at the dinner table alone while my mom was doing the dishes, I, without any thought, ate the rest of the rice with my fingers. You know, just picking up clumps of it and putting it in my mouth. Subconsciously. The bowl was empty before I knew it. And it was okay that that had just happened because I had spent the half hour before constantly washing my hands as I cooked.
More purple radish some time after dinner. This may become a daily thing.
Extra: potato, but not consumed. Mom sliced up a potato and gave me a potato facial. I don't know if it did anything. lol.
JOUR UN
7AM. Breakfast: scrambled egg whites, hash browns, salsa, ketchup, 2 slices of toast, butter; overall portion - large; meter - not to point of stuffed (really)
snack: coffee, donut, orange, banana, water
Rest of day: water, tba
snack: coffee, donut, orange, banana, water
Rest of day: water, tba
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Diet Log: Day 2
Tuesday.
No breakfast due to rolling around in bed until after noon. Again.
Leftover Curry of Mother for lunch.
Dinner at In n Out. Well-done fries. Omaigot.
Pinkberry at 9:25. Small original with the usual toppings.
What a great starting week for my diet log. Yeeeaaah.
No breakfast due to rolling around in bed until after noon. Again.
Leftover Curry of Mother for lunch.
Dinner at In n Out. Well-done fries. Omaigot.
Pinkberry at 9:25. Small original with the usual toppings.
What a great starting week for my diet log. Yeeeaaah.
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Diet Log: Day 1
Monday.
Breakfast? Yeah, right.
Lunch? Sure, at 3 pm.
My brother didn't have school so I was going to take him to in n out and then get some things at costco, but I ended up rolling around in bed until 2 and then making udon and not going to costco because I was too lazy. After udon I had some ice cream from the gigantic tub of baskin robin's that I had acquired the night before. Cookies and Creme on top of Mint Chocolate Chip on top of Chocolate Fudge.
Mom comes home at 6:30 and does something crazy-- she takes the tofu/bean sprout soup that she had made a couple days ago and the spicy seafood soup that I cooked for dinner yesterday and heats it all up in one pot, because HER thing didn't have enough soup and MY thing didn't have enough not-soup. It was crazy but it worked. I ate all my soup but couldn't even eat half the rice because I was still full from the udon and ice cream.
Exercise of the day: walking to Ralphs to buy the pads that I was supposed to buy at costco.
Mom made me eat some purple radish once I got home from exercise. That stuff is actually kind of amazing for digestion but I can still feel the radish taste in my mouth hours later. Strong stuff.
Right around the time my parents turn in for bed, I take out the giant tub of ice cream and dig in once more. I don't like blaming things on my period so I'm just going to think of it as backlash for the last couple of weeks of obsessively watching what I eat.
Breakfast? Yeah, right.
Lunch? Sure, at 3 pm.
My brother didn't have school so I was going to take him to in n out and then get some things at costco, but I ended up rolling around in bed until 2 and then making udon and not going to costco because I was too lazy. After udon I had some ice cream from the gigantic tub of baskin robin's that I had acquired the night before. Cookies and Creme on top of Mint Chocolate Chip on top of Chocolate Fudge.
Mom comes home at 6:30 and does something crazy-- she takes the tofu/bean sprout soup that she had made a couple days ago and the spicy seafood soup that I cooked for dinner yesterday and heats it all up in one pot, because HER thing didn't have enough soup and MY thing didn't have enough not-soup. It was crazy but it worked. I ate all my soup but couldn't even eat half the rice because I was still full from the udon and ice cream.
Exercise of the day: walking to Ralphs to buy the pads that I was supposed to buy at costco.
Mom made me eat some purple radish once I got home from exercise. That stuff is actually kind of amazing for digestion but I can still feel the radish taste in my mouth hours later. Strong stuff.
Right around the time my parents turn in for bed, I take out the giant tub of ice cream and dig in once more. I don't like blaming things on my period so I'm just going to think of it as backlash for the last couple of weeks of obsessively watching what I eat.
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